Happiness is Anal

oOh well it has been quite awhile since I bought my gorgeous heavy black dong but I hadn't found the time to try him out until now.

I'm such a sissy I only got just his big black cock head up inside me before the sensations became too much for me. So full. There was pain, yes, but..t.there was.. g.god honestly.. I had no idea.

I had no idea what pleasure was until I had my toy boyfriend inside my boipussy. I haven't felt so much sensation before and I didn't even do anything but get maybe 3 inches of him inside me!

I figured I'd have to do maneuvers or something to get him to touch my prostate and take me past the rainbow bridge to heaven but just having him in there was overwhelming in ways I just can't describe.

I couldn't stand the joy though and didn't push further, it is just soOOo much to fill me with. I just know once a man gets a hold of me he won't stop. He will be in control of the pace and he's going to push inside me and I'll forget what girls were ever built for.

This is so right for me.

I ain't sayin' I'm a gold digger

I confess, alright? I totally love money! I love power, i love powerful men, I love men in suits, i love older men and I... wait what was I saying?

Oh ya! It is super important to me to be wealthy, mostly because money facilitates dreams. I plan on having lots of it, and I am very near to achieving my goals.

I am a hedonist, for sure, but I am also a material girl. I want.

Shoes, dresses, spa visits, interior decoration, I want so much and I have big business plans.

I'm a business girl and I mean to have my own label and clothing line and fragrance line.

Money makes a fairy like me lady fabulous!

Lady Fabulous

So I totally told my girlfriend. Ya it was the most difficult thing I've ever done, certainly lived up to the saying it will be the hardest part.

She doesn't support me, but she isn't resisting the panties. The seed is planted, and time will let it grow into a totally super rainbow oak tree.

On another note, Lady Fabulous. It just rolls off the tongue, n'est pas? That super awesome Glee goth, Tina said it in reference to Kurt being over the rainbow fagtastic when Mercedes had this suuuper crush on him. Oh yes, Glee is magnificent. You must watch.

Lady Fabulous is the new gay.

Omg Shoes

I'm just the happiest girl in the world! I learned that I am size 10.5 women, which means I can shop at my regular girl shoe stores. I am so blessed! 5'7" and girl feet!

It has been suggested I have a shoe fetish. While I totally resist that idea, I have to admit I will have these shoes, and if you buy them for me I will thank you in the way I am most accustomed.

I get so energized knowing I will have such gorgeous shoes, click clacking my way around in my dresses, turning heads, and flipping my hair back to flash them a smile and shamelessly check out their chest and abs.

These shoes absolutely are my style. Fetish or no, I'm a princess and I deserve them.

My 1st Boyfriend

Meet my 1st boyfriend! I bought him earlier today and omg what an experience.

I went there with a different product in mind. The lady was so sweet to tell me he was made of icky rubber and smelled funny and stuff.

She led me to the prostate massager section. She smiled when, after her presentation, I expressed an interest in a realistic approach.

I had the white one in my hand, she took me through the demonstration. I was impressed. While I was about to pay, I saw my boyfriend on the table, standing proud. I said "You'll think I'm an idiot but..." and ran to my boyfriend, grabbing him and pulling him to the counter.

From that moment on in the conversation every sentence of hers ended with "Dear" "Sweetie" or "Darling". I'm not joking. Every sentence. "No sweetie, it is just your nature, I don't judge." Seriously, that was her reply.

I'm so happy with him. I held him against my pixiestick, comparing of course, and you know... I have just never known what a cock is. I am 1/3rd of his size, and simply couldn't match his girth. What a champion dong my boyfriend is!

Tomorrow I will have a happy slurp fest!

Nite nite!

Hormones, the Good.

I've been doing a lot of reading about the inevitability of how hormone replacement therapy will affect my body. Of course there is a lot to be afraid of, health risks and mental changes the biggest fears I have.

There is a lot to adore, otherwise why would we do it? Of course fat redistribution, sweat changes (scent and location), breasts and the taming of widdle pixiesticks, shrinking of balls (if I didn't already lob em off *giggles*). These are all happy changes but below are some that I really look forward to:

Mellow. Hormones apparently will make me mellow, something that will nourish my soul since I have always been a stressed out individual, frustrated easily with most things as a man.

As my skin thins, as well as being more susceptible to cold, I will experience an increase in tactile sensation. I will FEEL more strongly. This is greatly appealing.

My olfactory senses will improve. I will smell better. The risk, I am warned, is that I will be hopelessly drawn to male pheromones. I revel in this.