Blast off!

I'll be blasting off tomorrow, a long trip from Toronto to Tokyo and then towards Bangkok. I hope I see the islands of Japan as I land for the layover. I hope the wifi is good in the hotel in Bangkok lol!

I don't really have a major update... yet, save to say I'm going to Thailand, I've said my goodbyes. I'll update you from Thailand soon!

Alone in a family

In four days I fly to Thailand to have surgeries. When I return I will be full-time. My family is financing my boobs, basically. They have been supportive, but this week they have made it clear that they do not respect or appreciate my lifestyle choices. I can change gender, but I still cannot be myself.

I cannot help that I am a slut. I cannot help that I want to do porn and that financially we sort of need it. I feel today like the bond with my family is broken. I don't trust them, and I don't feel a connection.

If I could go back in time, I would have run away. I didn't transition because of family expectation. They didn't know I was trans, but when I turned eight my Dad left and every family member grabbed me by the shoulders and told me, "You've got to be the man now. You've got to take care of your family." That stress drove me into hiding. If I were to run away, to know then that my family would never embrace who I am, just the box I come in, I would have had a very hard life but that life would have been mine.

As of today, I'm not going to come back to Canada.

Ultimo update blast!

I've been a bad girl by not updating you sooner. I'm storming towards Thailand and have had a cacaphony of troubles on the way. Let's discuss a few.

OSAP decided to re-assess Jen's student loan, down not up, which now puts us in a difficult financial position on the precipice of Thailand. I had to give 1k of the 10k for my surgeries for security deposit and 1st two weeks on the daycare for our daughter. I won't get that money back in time, so now I won't be paying bills this month.

The camera isn't mine, it is a dear friend and business partner's. His insurance will not cover the camera if he is not with it, and since he can't make it to Thailand, I've been scrambling to find insurance to secure I'll have it. Without the camera, I have no documentary, ergo the Doctor wouldn't pay for my hotel, I wouldn't be able to afford all the surgeries because I'd be paying for two weeks in a hotel, and it collapses from there.  Today I was able to secure insurance through my own company if I take ownership of the camera equipment. Things keep getting expensive.

I'm not immune to Hepatitis. I had shots when I was in high school but it turns out some people can be non responsive to the vaccine. Thus, it's like I never had it. There isn't enough time to before exposure to have a booster shot so I'm going in unprotected.

I was informed by several official Thailand organizations that there is a "high probability" that I will be abducted into sex trafficking if I am left alone. Thankfully my brother is coming with me, but he does speak often of leaving me in the hotel room while he goes swimming in the pool. I would be quite the commodity, being the white tigress of ladyboy sex harlots I suppose.

I was approached by LiveJasmin to be a webcam model, lured by the promise of earning up to $1000 a week. Since I was planning on doing webcam work when I return and heal, this seems very fortuitous. I will check other companies as well, since I'm not entirely enamored with how little of my revenue I would be bringing home. These boys be pimps.

I have a coupon for pole dancing lessons that was gifted to me from a coworker. I called today and they are very eager to have me participate, which puts my mind at ease. If you know of trans-inclusive salsa dancing and yoga studios in the Greater Toronto Area please let me know.

Jen has begun school studying early childhood education. For her first research paper she has chosen her topic to be transgender children. I am very proud of her. Also I'm very relieved because that's a sure sign she's beginning to cope and accept me! Please forward me articles, documentaries, and books about transgender children if you find any.

Inappropriately, a picture:

I'm having surgery in 8 days.

Birthday Shemale April 26

So its my birthday and I learned last year that Kimber James and Bubblepop Mei share a birthday!

Last year I posted general information on fucking Taurus girls. The post was Birthday Shemale. This year I'd like to go into specifics about what it means to know and fuck a Taurus girl from April 26. Remember that Venus is how we are, and Mars is how we like our men!

Rising Sign is in 06 Degrees Libra 
Very attractive and popular, your charm helps you to get your own way and prevents others from getting angry with you. "Peace and harmony at all costs" is your battle cry. You always try to ameliorate or to cosmetically hide any physical ugliness or any angry feelings between people. Flashy, but not gaudy, you prefer to dress elegantly. You generally have good taste in music, art and literature. Beware of the tendency to compromise yourself in your attempt to be agreeable at all times. A bit of a social butterfly, at times you can be vain and lazy. For the most part, however, you are gracious and affectionate, and your refined and aristocratic demeanor serves as a role model to others. 

Sun is in 06 Degrees Taurus. 
You are known for being patient, slow moving and careful -- you love to prolong and savor enjoyable times. You appreciate and need comfort, ease and warm surroundings. Be careful of a tendency to become placid and self-satisfied and to overeat (especially sweets). You require strenuous situations in order to grow and mature properly, even though you try to avoid them. Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things. You portray an earthy, physical sexiness that others find quite seductive. 

Moon is in 29 Degrees Virgo. 
You tend to be serious-minded but cheerful for the most part. You need tasks that engage both your mind and your hands. A careful worker, you enjoy making things. You are neat and orderly, and are very concerned with good health habits. Fastidious to the extreme, you cannot tolerate messes and will immediately clean them up. Reserved, shy, and very self-critical, you tend to be very hard on yourself. You usually will go out of your way to be helpful and useful to others. Practical, reliable, efficient and conservative, at times you are a bit of a prude. You are known to lead a simple, uncomplicated, frugal, methodical and unemotional lifestyle. You are devoted and caring to those you love. 

 Mercury is in 19 Degrees Aries. 
Very quick-witted, you are known for being an independent thinker. You love to debate and argue, and are excellent at repartee and battles of wits. At times, however, you act too fast on hastily formed opinions and thus waste a lot of energy defending your rash and sometimes incorrect conclusions. It is perfectly acceptable for you to defend your beliefs with your usual vigor, but try not to take the opinions of others as personal insults. 

Venus is in 20 Degrees Gemini. 
You are friendly, warm, open and tolerant toward others. You love variety in relationships, indeed you may even prefer to maintain more than one relationship at a time! Very witty and humorous, you have the ability to amuse and please others. This makes you quite popular. You love to play the field and thus find it difficult to settle down and make any deep emotional commitments. Your innate charm and vivacity makes you welcome most everywhere you go. 

Mars is in 28 Degrees Leo. 
You are a very proud person. Strong, bold, courageous and self-possessed, you love to be the one to initiate significant actions. When people expect a lot of you, you respond positively and will work hard in order to maintain their respect. But when your dignity or pride is threatened, you tend to become sarcastic, arrogant and domineering. Try not to take any challenge or resistance that you meet as a personal affront. You are very stubborn about your right to live your life according to your own principles. 

Jupiter is in 00 Degrees Virgo. 
You feel most expansive and at ease with yourself when you are doing something that you consider to be practical or useful. You enjoy being dutiful and carrying out responsibilities. You gladly take on the little tasks that others seem to want to avoid. At times, you carry things to extremes and feel guilty anytime you do something that you consider to be self-indulgent. While it is appropriate for you to demand little for yourself in life, try to loosen up once in a while -- go out on a fling and enjoy yourself! 

Saturn is in 20 Degrees Virgo. 
Your life must be orderly and practical and full of known and familiar routines in order for you to feel comfortable with yourself. Be careful, however, not to let "order" become the be-all and end-all of your life, or you may become cold, crass and unfeeling. Doing useful, practical things boosts your self- esteem. Abstract concepts and reasoning seem frivolous and a waste of time to you. You are very critical of yourself (and others), indeed at times quite self-deprecating. Try to relax a bit and allow yourself the freedom to fail once in a while. However, you probably won't fail very often because you are such a perfectionist. 

Uranus is in 24 Degrees Scorpio. 
You, and your peer group, demand to confront life at its deepest and most meaningful levels. Very compulsive and obsessive in your approach to everything, you will avoid anything that is casual or superficial, especially when it comes to relationships. You will seek out and explore new methods of healing as well as different ways to deal with deep-seated emotional problems. 

Neptune is in 22 Degrees Sagittarius. 
You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village." 

Pluto is in 19 Degrees Libra. 
For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered into lightly. 

N. Node is in 26 Degrees Leo. 
You prefer to take the leadership role when it comes to dealing with others. You enjoy administering and organizing group activities. Others tend to listen to your suggestions because you aren't usually overly domineering or patronizing in your interactions. You love to entertain in a big way -- you're at your best when throwing a large and lavish party. Your popularity and social success are assured as long as you don't take others for granted -- resist the temptation to become snobbish and arrogant.

So Happy Birthday to Kimber James and to Bubblepop Mei!

Thailand Fantasy

This series was among the first captions I ever made. In fact, if memory serves, it was the very first. Fitting now that I will travel to Thailand in three weeks. Sadly this will not be the outcome.

F on Ontario birth certificate

I should have mentioned this earlier. It is a great victory for my people. The human rights tribunal has decreed that the Ontario government was discriminating against my kind in the way that they scrutinized our genitals in order to be considered female on some government documents.

I have been able to get an F on my Driver's license and health card, as well as change my legal name to a Mei, but up until this ruling I have been unable to get an F on my birth certificate. That means my birth certificate will read Mei - Male instead of Mei - Female like it dun shoulda! This is especially troubling as birth certificates are required for passports...

Thanks to hard working amazonian awesmonauts that is going to change. The Ontario government now has 180 days to revise their criteria and replace that requirement with something less invasive than having one Doctor sign that he cut me between my legs and another Doctor signing that he checked under my skirt, and that pussy be nice.

While I was searching for links to share, I found a great many disturbing ideas. It is frightening how backwards people who think they are for the common good can be, and religion doesn't need to even play a role. Haters gonna hate.

I'm citing a legal source as it is relatively impartial.
http://www.canadianlawyermag.com/legalfeeds/815/Government-treatment-of-transgendered-people-discriminatory-tribunal.html

Super Heroes

After announcing my plans to cosplay as Star Sapphire at this year's comic convention in Toronto, I was asked to post some of my old captions of a heroic nature. These are from 2006 I think, and I always think of my friend Anzaleth when I read them.

Star Sapphire @ FanExpo

I'm so excited to do all the things that I've always wanted to, once I return from Thailand as Mei 2.0.
My little bulge will be showing in on Toronto beaches this summer, and one of the bigger events I like to indulge in each summer is Fan Expo, the largest nerd fest in Toronto.

Many of my friends cosplay, but I have never done so. I very much want to cosplay this year. I love Star Sapphire, but I haven't lost enough weight to do the more recent of her costumes. Instead I will do my favourite.

Part of what makes cosplay so fascinating is that I cannot buy this costume in stores. I must make it myself. The talent of cosplayers amazes me, and while I feel this is a daunting task, I am eager to give it a big effort. I'll be doing a white corset in place of the white area in the middle I think, which will help give an even more exaggerated hourglass. My huge store bought boobies will be shoved into almost obscene cleavage.. I plan on showing them off.

The real sticky situation is whether to convert my version of Star Sapphire's costume to be a dress, thus hiding the leotard crotch area, and my little sleeping princess in her bulging nest. She is not big, but it would be impossible not to notice.

Do I dare let the nerd hoard at Fan Expo see I am sexy ladyboy, or do I opt for an easier time, and hide my bulge and let them just dream without knowing my secret?

Refused medicine

"I know you; we have spoken about your situation. I cannot give you this medicine until I speak to your Doctor," is what the woman behind the pharmacy desk said to my disappointment.

I was refused my estrogen by my pharmacy today because I'm transgender. The pharmacy is part of one of the largest grocery chains in Canada, if you can guess by the picture.

I'm going to send a letter to my member of parliament, cc'ing contacts from the grocery head office and political groups that would want to know about this.

Additionally I will be filing a human rights complaint.

I feel bad for the woman who is about to get fired; she probably has kids. However I felt violated and powerless without just cause.

So how was your day?

Homecoming

I'm super excited. My daughter is coming home Saturday after having been in the Philippines with her Mother for the past five weeks. I miss them both, but I'm so excited to see my daughter! I bought a little playground to put in the backyard, just so I can hear that little voice say "Wow!"

From naked pics to mommy madness, my blog is sort of odd, n'est pas?