Sporting Life

I never was much of a sporty person. I find most sports games boring, though oddly I like the idea of making snacks and serving drinks to the guys while they watch the game.

Luckily not being sporty has helped me have a soft body which makes it easier to pass! Super!

Doctored

So while I fidget to get comfy on long wait lists for tg support programs, counselling, and TG experienced physicians, I have a small bit of movement from my current Doctor.

I had the HRT protocols for him, but he's opting instead to refer me to an endocrinologist instead. I suppose I wanted him to say he'd take this adventure on himself, but it makes way better sense to have the professional hormone magicians sparkle dust over me instead.

Regardless, I can't afford it yet. I wonder if a "donate" button would be a good idea for my blog...

Pornstar Vanity Interview

Vanity is an inspiration, and I was overjoyed to find this interview with her. If anyone has interviews with other transsexual pornstars I would very much like to watch them.

Feminine Voice Training

Hiyas people!

So on my quest to become a fabulous shemale pornstar there many facets of femininity that I have to drown in. Since it is my thoughts and words that make you gorgeous men feel sooO good you want to sneak me around your girlfriends backs and buy me things, that is something I want to focus really hard on!

Now I'm very blessed to have been a chatty child, and practiced silly voices often. I have several years experience in voice work and radio production, so I understand the basics of making my voice feminine without help. That doesn't change the fact I have to practice practice practice just as much as all of you girls.

Now I've included a few videos below, but I'll go through the basics with you here.

1. Reach for falsetto, not to stay at falsetto, but to learn to speak without resonance.

2. Think about how you want to sound, bimbo or not.. find your own unique voice.

3. Practice. You'll want to use a voice recorder to play it back to yourself.

Now you don't have to buy a fancy recorder, and honestly most smartphones can download apps of voice recording, and most mp3 players have that function. Because I work in sound production already, I have a Zoom Handy Recorder H4n. Very overkill.

CandiFLA is a great resource on youtube for how to train your voice to be feminine. When I found her, thanks to Megan, I was absolutely shocked at how much like me she is. She is very much my end goal for physical appearance, but also she has humour, confidence, and flirtatiousness that I share. One of the most interesting aspects about Candi is that she reverts to male voice frequently. That is very rare, and special, since it shows how deep voiced males can acheive feminine voices despite their starting points.

The following are some of her videos on voice training:

For me, it is very difficult to practice without privacy. My gf is on maternity leave, she is always here, always asking me what I'm doing, always in the same room. I will take my recorder and go outside, but then I'm doing it outside. I'm not sure what a good option is, but I have to find one, if I am to sound feminine when I dress as a woman, for Halloween...

Caught! Without support

I'm having a really hard time getting the guidance I need to pursue my transformation. Wait lists abound. 9 month wait list here, 1.5 year wait list there, 3 months is so far the fastest. In the meantime, I've been given a list of Hormone Replacement Therapy protocols to provide to my Doctor. If he is up for the quest, he'll prescribe them himself, if not, I've also been given a list of endocrinologists he can refer me to.

It is progress, but it is slow.

I have been having a hard time of it, mostly the continued stress put on my common law partner. She finds my nail polish and it is amusing, she sees me putting it on, and she cries for 24 hours. She finds my dress and its amusing, but I shudder to think how long she would cry if she saw me wearing it.

Cum makes you happy!

I was overjoyed to read that getting our boipussies full of cum will help us be docile and happy! I look forward to creampie relaxation techniques! Thanks to Orva for finding this tidbit for me!

Ladyboy tush

Imagefap

I am so proud of my imagefap profile. I always talk about tending my imagefap garden, and what I mean is that I will go online, find new fans, bookmark new and sexy favourite galleries. What a great place to show off my captions, pics of my heroes, fashion styles I covet, and finally after today... ladyboy porn I intend to emulate.

Imagefap is full of hot-blooded, hungry men who are so very eager to send me sexy messages of praise. I quite like that.

Cybersexuality

I hadn't really thought about what I was doing all those hours, flirting and fucking with and endless lineup of men on sex chats. I think I was 15 when I first discovered what it felt to be treated nicely by older men. I felt sexy, validated, and became addicted quickly.

Sometimes I would spend 12 hours a day in a constant orgy of group sex, submissive sweetness, and gangbang slutfucking. I never wanted it to stop.

I still don't, but now I want it for real.

When I asked myself what it was that would make me happy, this is what came to mind. How have I chosen to spend my minutes and seconds? Sex. Naturally a career as an adult entertainer is a fitting choice for me.

I don't lie about it, I don't hide it, and I don't care if you judge me. I am pleasantly promiscuous and intend to make money doing it. Men love it, they love spending their money on me, and I love receiving, cock and carats.

How wonderful would it have been if something like in these fantasy captions had come true for me? How many of us are such shining jewels of sexual prowess online, but trapped in boy prison in the physical world? Tila Tequila, Tigerr Benson, Areeya, Paris Hilton.

I'm no different than them.