Pussy means weightloss

The clinic wants me to drop below a big number before I go under the knife. Losing weight before a surgery is a good idea, it speeds up recovery and it increases the chances everything will go nicely.

Unfortunately, my depression had me eating pizza, the almighty comfort food, several times a week for a long time. I have a ways to go to get below that big number. I've got 5 weeks to do it.

There's a weight loss clinic in the GTA that is OHIP covered under some circumstances, like oh say preparing for major surgery. I have an appointment tomorrow!

PUSSY IN MARCH

I received my letter from the ministry confirming my SRS is being financed. It came along with a package from the Montreal clinic. The package contained information, and a medical history form to fill out.

It took some time because I've been in custody law stuff, had the flu really hard, got depressed pretty heavily, and well that is why all I had the power to do was reblog on tumblr via my phone.

The medical history info was submitted last week. I expected a wait list of several months, maybe even a year. Nope! I received a surgery date for the end of March! I am SO excited.

I have a lot to prepare for in a very short period of time. I'll update you as we go!

Blonde

I'm blonde now! I was really enjoying being a redhead, but my stylist recommended the change and I jumped at the chance. I still have red highlights underneath, but I'm very, very blonde right now.

Christmas Mei

I've wanted to take pics of me tangled in Christmas lights for 3 years. Last year I did a photo shoot with Shemale Yum and brought the idea up. They didn't get it at all.

I still would like to do this in a more professional way but for now I'm proud of myself for getting this idea out of my head, despite the low quality webcam pics that are, at times, unflattering.

I'll take this time to remind you that there are some tasty treats on my imagefap and tumblr sites.

I'm super excited about my incoming kitty tail butt plug and neko ears. Several boys are excitedly sending me things and that makes my panties come off mmm mmm!

Hanging Lights

Unpacking is slowly coming along in the new place. In my lovely purple bedroom, there are no overhead lights. I have two little lamps but they don't give nearly enough light. I came up with a lovely idea to have strings of white led holiday lights on my wall as art, year round.


The first attempt was to string them up on the ceiling. Staples were useless on the stucco ceiling for some reason. We tried a web work of strings run from hooks in one wall to the other, tangling the lights on them. That lasted one night, and when I awoke in the morning, I was draped in a web of shiny things.

We decided to get a kajillion little adhesive hooks and  string up the lights on my wall. It lasted a few weeks, but one by one the hooks failed, taking some of the wall with them, and eventually all the lights were on the floor.

I was looking for any solution to get these darn lights to stay up! I went to Home Depot and Rona and asked about lattice, but they wouldn't cut it and it was 4 x 8. Wow way too big! A sweet old lady who works at Home Depot suggested I use the grating that you'd see covering ceiling lights in a restaurant or office. I used a bunch of twist ties and strung up my lights. I really like this. Not only does it keep a strict rectangle shape, but the grating adds additional texture!

Now to get the big Ikea Hovet mirror to put on the wall above my bed.

APPROVED

I GOT MY APPROVAL!

The letter from the government came and so I am now approved to have OHIP cover my SRS for the next 24 months.

The next step is for me to meet with my Doctor, fill out the referrals and medical history, and send it to the Montreal clinic!

Things are moving forward!

In the meantime, I'd like to touch base since its been awhile since I blogged.

I've still been on tumblr, dropping pics on Mondays and Tuesdays, and reblogging porn most days lol. I find the blog posts tend to be really heavy on life content and I have little time to sit down and hammer them out. Tumblr I do from my phone and it takes a moment.

I'll provide more updates and pace them.

Moving On

My darlings, I've been down far too long! I wanted to let you all know that I'm still kicking. I started to come out of depression when I sought out some counselling and just in time for taking charge of the moving arrangements.

I've reached a tentative custody arrangement for my daughter. It isn't as much as I wanted, but it is something. I feel relief at the closure.

I'm painting the new place and preparing it. 2 bedroom apartment I will share with my brother. We move in this Saturday!

Once there, I'll be doing more video work and webcam porn. I will finally be a princess no longer trapped in my tower. If you are local and want to have fun on webcam, hit me up with a comment and let's do make it happen!

Until then, here's a few pics of the new place.

Distressed Daughter

Things are changing pretty rapidly here. We are packing up to move, arguing about custody, things are tense. Daycare says my daughter isn't eating and is quiet, not herself. She hasn't hugged me in weeks.

I'm dying inside and baby mama is being fucking terrible. She wants to prevent me from seeing our daughter, she wants to leave with no custody agreement in place.

I don't know what to do. Why is so much of my life falling apart in order for me to be happy with myself?

Approving pussies

So I had 2 interviews at CAM-H and confirmed that it was the last hoop to jump through. I did it! Yay!

The goal was to provide an update on how I'm doing, make sure I'm mentally stable, have a support system, and then establish informed consent. I've done so!

As far as CAM-H is concerned, unless lightning strikes or a curve ball is thrown, I'm approved. It will be about 6 weeks before their request for funding is sent to the Ministry. Two months or so more before I get the funding letter from the Ministry, and then at that time I can get on the Doc's wait list which is about 6-9 months.

So this time next year, PUSSY!

PUSSY quest

I received a letter with my next appointment through CAM-H's Gender Identity Clinic. I meet with two Doctor's shortly, one after the other, where I will be expected to verbally detail my understanding of a few things:

1. The surgical procedures involved in the surgery I'm pursuing (pussy upgrade)
2. My awareness of the medical risks involved
3. My clear and reasonable aftercare plan for recovery (how i'm getting home, whose problem am I when I whine, etc.)

Basically I need to establish informed consent.

I'm excited that I'm once again moving forward with this journey, but my optimism is extremely cautious. I was told I'd be meeting with the head if the program. Instead, I'm meeting with 2 people, one of whom is yet another intern.

The letter also indicates I need to bring my "real life" experience documents... again.

Again!? Seriously?! This reads like repeating steps. How many times do I need to provide all these documents that prove I am a woman before I get the respect to have my surgical decisions determined worthy but a Doctor rather than interns? Do they not keep records?

It's creepy... but it's happening.