Life after SRS

It has been awhile and in no small part my hiatus has been due to life struggles. I figure I end up sounding like a broken record if all I do is go on and on about how things aren't so great.

I keep up on Tumblr easily enough. I dunno, I guess it is the convenience of an easy to use app on my phone. Also a habitual reblogging of fine lady porns.

I get questions there from time to time. Here's one now.

How are you doing after your srs is your life starting to be normal

Great question! I’d say I’m about 80% healed. I still have some bleeding when I dilate with the really big 4th dilator and I get some soreness from swelling when I wear skinny jeans, but that’s to be expected. 

I’m down to 2 dilations a day, once in morning and again at night. I try to aim for 12 hours because if I don’t dilate in the night until its been like 14-16 hours the tightness is painful. 

I’ve returned to regular duties at work. Granted, I work in an office so my job is to sit down a lot, but that’s fine. I’ve been advised not to participate in work out programs or dance programs for a year. Sadly, no yoga or pole dancing until 2015. 

To be honest, my sex drive has diminished. My sex drive has always been cerebral and I think it is a mixed bag of still recovering medically and also being kicked in the face emotionally a LOT. Life has been stressful. I’ve incurred financial hardship because of being off work during my recovery that I do not see a way to recover from. I’m having a hard time mentally.

Also, I don’t really feel I can connect to anyone local to me. I know a few guys who I talk to but nothing has clicked enough for them to care enough to come visit me so I have not had sex yet. I’m anxious to try but I’m also anxious because I don’t want to get hurt during the act.